撑。

I think I cant take it anymore.

just hope that everything will end soon.

迷惘的心情。

Today 31st July 2011. 晴。

Is a wonderful day to rest at home. I just cant rest due to the amount of workload given. But i am not doing anything, super no mood to start on my project, and there is test coming up.

Should i continued to slack? Am i doing the right thing? just feeling super stress and wanted to relieve my stress, but i do not want to let others know about it.

And my friend, i treated you as my friend but do you? Do i need to consider this again? why am i thinking of this? I hated it when you say that sentence. do you know how much i hated?! You never know, i swear. Why, why do you have to say it again and again? you know how bad i feel? Am i such a failure? will i start to lose all my friends? i really dunno. Or you just dun fit to be my friend? Or the other way round?

However, with all the bad side of the day, i know i still have someone, somewhere there to help me, support me. It is not that bad after all.

WHAT I HAVE ATE FOR THE PASS 3 DAYS

12/06/2011~ 14/06/2011

Reached Port Dickson on the 12 June 2011 at 10.30pm. Wanted to go seaview to buy roti prata, but the shop has closed. disappointing! after that went home to eat "bak Zhang/ dumpling" after eating i went to sleep. haha....

On the 13 June, early in the morning my parent and I went to Seremban to eat "yi bo lao su fen". After that went to buy " sao bao" and egg tart to eat. i think i ate 4 "sao bao" and 1 egg tart. after that we went Jusco to shop, bought a pair of green slipper and herbal egg. haha.... around afternoon ate homecooked stir fried "bee hoon" and "bak zhang" and also have a few cups of taiwan oolong tea... haha.. Ate a lot of sea weed and pork floss from thailand. At night, nothing much, ate food that my grandmother has cook. Pan fry fish, stir fried vegetable, pork trotter, stir fried mixed vegetables with pig skin. That is all for Monday.

On the 14 June, in the morning went out with my aunt and parent to eat breakfast; wanton noodle and laksa with a cup of herbal tea. In the afternoon, just ate "bak zhang" again. For dinner; satay, roti prata, poh pia, homecooked soup, stir fried vegetable with sotong and pig trotter again.

15 June, ate "nasi lemak" and "teh tarlik" for breakfast. Nothing much for lunch, just some leftover from yesterday dinner. went to drink "ABC/ ice kachang". Dinner ate fried rice.....

This is the end of the trip to malaysia.

SUMMARY: dumpling, lao su fen, sao bao, egg tart, herbal egg, fried bee hoon, oolong tea, sea weed, pork floss, pan fried fish, stir fried vegetable with pig skin, pork trotter, wanton noodle, laksa, herbal tea, satay, roti prata, poh pia, soup, stir fried vegetable with sotong, nasi lemak, teh tarlik, ABC and fried rice.

Imagine how many Kcal I have put on for this vacation, from tommorow onwards I can only eat things that are healthy and low in calories.